Only Hope

Because of who I am, I'll skip the pain, questions, and struggles and get straight to the "answers" to all the issues. At least I don't waste time getting to my points. The answer is God. I was praying through improvised song which tends to cut straight to the heart and although there's a lot of hurt coming out, it's still really good. The only real answer to everything is God. So... anyways, this might sound like I'm using some overused cliches... but the reason why they're said so much is that there's some truth in them. And I do mean them.
God is my only hope and all I need. My life belongs to Him. And He is the only one who can always have me completely. God is the only one who can fill my emptiness and make me whole. He is the only one who can heal me and mend my brokenness. He's the only one who can offer grace and forgive me even though I've made so many mistakes. The only good decision for me to make is to trust God completely. Which also means believing that He is good (all the time!) and wants what is best. Although what is best for me is not always what I want. But I can put everything in his hands.
I'm not going to commit myself to a path without life or hope because I know that he can change any situation. God is in control. No matter how dark my light is, or how dim my view of life and the future is, God's love is an overwhelming brightness. And his power can overcome any forces of sin and evil that surround me or are in me. When I am weak, God is my strength. Therefore, I should not give up or grow weary. I don't know what will happen in the future, but where ever I go, I don't want to go anywhere without God. I can't. And if I walk with Him, I know I will never be alone.

The verse of a song I wrote that has touched me deepest recently is simple but profoundly meaningful to me and kind of sums everything up:

You might have your life together
But me, I have almost nothing left.
Lord, all I have is a life to give you,
A heart that hurts and my spirit cries.
I give you all, 'cause I trust you God.
I don't even know what you'll bring tomorrow.
But what I know is that you provide.
And I'm grateful for your love for me.
I am not afraid, because you are all that matters to me.